Please come back
Let’s run away together. Start over. Pretend like nothing bad ever happened. We’ll do everything you always wanted to do and I’ll never say “no”. I’ll tell you I love you every day and never forget to kiss you goodnight. I’ll hold your hand in public and in private. I’ll always tell you the truth even if it hurts. I’ll rub your back when it’s sore and brush your hair back from you face while you’re sleeping, just so I can look at you for one last second before I realize that another day with you has ended. That the next best day of my life is coming in the morning. I am nothing without you and you are everything to me.
I’m sorry I fucked it all up but maybe we can start over. Maybe we can rebuild what we had, make it even better, bigger, grander, larger than life even.
Until then I’ll think about you before I fall asleep and when I wake up, remembering what it was like when everyday of my life was the best day of my life.
I miss my two cats. I miss my home. I miss my friends. I miss you.
I had the world and I threw it away.